| [Dybo] |
[Nov. 13th, 2009|11:03 am] |
(( Scratched onto a sheet of paper and nailed to the door of his (new) room in Dalaran: ))
Fuckin gone to Icecrown if I'm not back in a month I dunno I'll be back I think
-- D. Darkspear, Sept. 27 |
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| [Kombe] |
[Nov. 9th, 2009|01:56 pm] |
Been ... stuck as a woman for a while. Not sure what I'm gonna have to do to go back or if I even wanna.
As a man:
- Dad tries to hook me up - People from my past can find me - I can't use magic
As a woman:
- I have big tits - I can use magic - I have tits
Yeah I think I know the answer to this question. |
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| [Ojore] |
[Oct. 14th, 2009|12:08 am] |
Looking for work. Brewfest not… what I expected.
Never. Drinking. AGAIN.
Rabbit-creature won’t stop following me. It has antlers and wings and chirps. When I hug it, it squeaks
I was at a … some kind of event. Some old woman gave me cupcakes. Me. Cupcakes. I ate them like I had not eaten in months. I might go again. Big-breasted elves. Annoying Tauren women, though.
I have not seen anyone I knew. No Lyra, no Nissa. I don’t want to see them or want them to see me as I am now I want to start over. I would change my name but that would mean losing what little I still have.
Need new rings for my tusks. |
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| [Kombe] |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|04:45 pm] |
Still can't cast, neither can Juni, and dad's acting funny.
Last night he basically told Juni - and me - that if she's gonna just give up then she's not worth the trouble anyway and that just isn't like him but I don't know who it is, I mean, he's old and strange but still, I don't know, I'm just
And if Juni's gonna give up then what should I do? I mean if she feels there isn't any hope - she's the strongest girl I know, so what does that mean? It means we're both screwed, there's no helping it, the Blue dragons got sorta what they wanted by knocking a couple mages out of commission forever.
I don't know if I can stand to be without my magic for much longer I mean I was trying to be calm oh it'll come back but now I'm not sure I mean what if it doesn't? Then what'll I do? Go back to stabbing things for a living? I haven't stabbed anything since before that stuff with Ti'rae attracting Hakkar's attention and and and
She's doing something but I'm not sure what and
I need to find a Witch Doctor! |
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| [Masamba] |
[Sep. 25th, 2009|08:55 pm] |
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Since Juni cannot cast, she is feeling extremely... useless.
Try as I might to convince her otherwise, the woman does not listen, especially not when drunk. I will have to try again when she has sobered up.
Now I know what I must have been like, my Loas.
She also has a pet... something... named Snuffsomethingorother that only she can see and ... I think it was the booze talking.
Back to doing whatever it takes to keep her sober. Whatever it takes. |
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| [Talash] |
[Sep. 21st, 2009|02:50 pm] |
I'm sitting in the living room, watching Koru play on the floor with the Vindicator's daughter. It's peaceful here, there's no gunfire, nothing horrible happening, dad sometimes visits and Dek is here for the boy. Sometimes I feel like I've trapped him, but I know that if he didn't like this, if he didn't want this he'd go.
And he hasn't. He's still here.
I've screwed up a lot in my life. I spent years lying about who I was and where I was from, leading people on and being a real jerk. I spent much of it as a sneak. I wasn't a good person.
I'm still not a good person, I mean... I'm just not.
At least I never told anybody what I knew about Red. I'll take that with me to the grave. I don't know if it matters, though, because he's just - up and gone. I wouldn't be surprised to hear that he was dead.
Sad, but not surprised.
Dek and Koru are the first things I've done right in my life so I've got to stick with them. Well, Zan too, but he died too young.
I want to grow old like this, watching my boy grow - maybe one day more will join him, maybe he'll have siblings one day? Who knows. If I stay in the military I probably won't grow old.
This is the hardest thing I've done, writing up my resignation.
( Talash's resignation letter: To the Harbingers of War ) |
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| [Kombe] |
[Sep. 21st, 2009|10:31 am] |
(( Kombe's writing is all over the place, it's sorta like he said "aw fuck it" and didn't really try to be neat. ))
got rid of her. jeria said there wasn't any damage but i'm still concerned cause she was so so hard to push out. loas i hope she gets rid of that thing really really really fast.
got up in the middle of the night and dragged myself back to the refuge. there was a guy here i think it was juni's, didn't even say anything as i left.
can't cast. dad had to light the stove to make tea. i couldn't do it myself. i keep trying to cast something but it isn't working. i hope this isn't permanent. what if it is? then what will i do? oh loas oh loas oh loas
dad's giving me more tea. i'm so tired. i've got to go back and check on juni but i can't even get up ... maybe dad can help me. sleep for a while |
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| [Dybo] |
[Sep. 10th, 2009|10:39 am] |
Fuck yes. Yes yes yes.
Spent the night with Ash seems that we both had the same thinkin' of "oh I better not bug 'em they're workin'" but now I know better and fuck I'm gonna bug her lots. I almost made it man, almost, but she was so crazy but she didn't notice 'cause she still got what she wanted so it was all good.
I'm so fuckin' lucky.
Was real nice wakin' up next to her awww I'm such a sappy sonuvabitch.
Ain't been working quite as hard and been debatin whether or not I wanna shave so we'll see I mean I probably won't. Got an order for more armour though so hey decent coin and I don't gotta stab nothin', sweet deal. |
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| [Grin'dal] |
[Aug. 17th, 2009|10:02 am] |
It's been three weeks and she hasn't come crawling back yet. Maybe something happened? No. She's being stubborn like usual, it's just how she is.
((Scribbles.))
I been putting my alchemy training to good use, making diamonds outta junk and selling them for good money. My nurses are gone now, down to one, I can mostly see well, see well enough to know what I'm doing now and my legs are doing okay, I can stand and limp around though I've got the wolf to help with that.
((More scribbles, a few loops.))
Ain't been with any women in a while neither which ain't right.
I kinda miss her
There's some tavern thing that goes on every week, twice a week, but it's in Ratchet and I can't go to where the Goblins are 'cause it's all Cartel and they know my face. Maybe there's something somewhere else that I can go and see people and stuff. Or just hang around Orgrimmar and hope for the best, right? |
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| [Kombe] Progress! |
[Aug. 14th, 2009|01:03 pm] |
So I've been finding out that anything Juni knows, the other thing we wanna remove knows, too, because it's basically seeing through her eyes. Like I said to Violeta it's like a zeppelin with two pilots.
I'm surprising myself 'cause I did so much of the brainstorming and figuring out but I think I have a pretty good idea of what's what here like I think we can trick Juni and her other personality. When Jeria gets back we'll meet and see about all this BUT I have a good idea. I mean, what if we do something that winds up making Juni think that what we're doing didn't work and then that maybe we can't get rid of it? Then it'll take the other personality/memory set by surprise when we do yank it out, though I'm not sure how to remove it.
I wonder ...
Warlocks collect pieces of souls in shards, and sometimes turn those shards into containers to hold onto other souls. I wonder if this memory set can be transferred to a similar container, and then I could destroy this container and therefore destroy these memories and the magic associated with them? Because just pulling them out without a focus to pull to is a really bad idea.
I wonder if anybody in the Refuge knows a Warlock.
I'm hoping Violeta's friend Eli can make a potion that won't act up if it's mixed with alcohol because well, then we'd have to go back to the drawing board. |
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| [Dybo] The Tuskarr and the Troll |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|12:26 pm] |
(( I read about the Tuskarr today and then this hit me. >.> Since Dybo's a fisherman, it only makes sense for him to get to know the Tuskarr. ))
There's somethin' odd about them fat furry men. Maybe it's how damn cheerful they always is or how pleasant or some shit, but they remind me of my grandpa back in the day, him and my grandma were real charmers, too. He fished lots, he's the guy that taught me how to fish when I was a real little boy and he always said "a man's ability to fish reflects his attitude toward his family and worth in life". A man that can't fish can't really provide for his family and it goes double if he can't cook. Man that can't fish can't make a livin'. Man that can't fish can't - you get the idea.
So when I first ran into 'em I had been fishin' up my lunch. I saw smoke and figgered that usin' somebody else's fire would probably be the better thing 'cause me hands were too damn cold to start my own damn fire, so I trudged along the water 'til I came across that strange li'l village an' found all them tusk-men and I did the first thing that came to mind - I offered 'em my fish.
They smiled and laughed and were all, "Welcome to Mo'aki Harbour, cousin!" and shit like that, gave me a mix and a pipe 'cause I didn't have no papers for my cigarettes. I musta really looked like shit 'cause they fed me and some invited me to go fishin' with 'em, and like Grandpa said, "never turn down a chance to fish", I said yeah and I went.
Most other people see a sleaze when they lookit me - a careless slob of a sneak an' shit but yanno, it's all an act, 'cause the moment folks know you ain't stupid they're watchin' you. These people don't see none of that, they judge me based on me fishin'. 'Cause I fish, and fish lots, and share my catches and cook, I'm a real good guy.
It's really fuckin' fascinatin' to see how somethin' so damn simple can mean so much. I mean, I've been in awe ever since and evry time I go back evry damn time. |
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| [Dybo] |
[Aug. 10th, 2009|10:27 am] |
Been keepin track of that chick that mentioned Samba and I run into her the other day, snuck up then she returned the favour and seemed like she was gonna blow my head off though I dont think she really was gonna I mean theres fuckin guards there and if you're serious about blowing somebody to bits you don't do it in the city especially not when he's wearin military colours like I am 'cause you don't get away with that shit. Said she's gonna talk to Samba to see if he really does have a brother cause he never told her about me which is fine and she oughtta know that men dont talk about a lot of shit so whatever.
Nice lookin girl though, if that Samba really is my brother then the boy's done good and man Matojo makes some really nice daughters lemme tell you.
Ain't seen hide nor hair of Ash of late though, keepin' my ears open cause if somethin' bad's happened I'm pretty sure the ol' networks will say as much but I ain't heard a damn thing and I ain't gonna go lookin' 'cause I don't know where to go though I am gonna sneak 'round Dustwallow 'cause that's where her other job was right so yeah. That's where I'm headed now actually so hopefully I find something or at least that she's in one piece and not fifty.
Thing 'bout being hooked up with a girl in this line of work is that you can't really expect 'em to be 'round all the time or easy to get in touch with kinda like she can't expect that a' me. It's a hard thing but you just gotta be confident in them bein' good at what they do just like you're good at what you do - maybe not the best at what I do but close to it - and so you just kinda go on like that and hope for the best.
She's bound ta be fine though I mean she's good at her work and shit.
I still ain't been real lucky with pickin' up no other girls neither, they don't seem to like me bein' charmin' and shit. I don't get it but whatever. I got enough on my plate with the work I'm doin that I don't got a lotta time for no extra work anyway if you know what I mean, oh yeah. |
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| [WrA][Dybo] |
[Aug. 6th, 2009|08:26 pm] |
Met a woman, Ash, who come after me like she was a carrion bird lookin' fer a meal an' was all circlin', talkin' 'bout some clan or another. Atal'Jinai or somethin'. Anyhow, massive fella joined 'er named Rindali, Rin, whatever, guy's jus' a kid an' he's bigger 'n me. She got him wrapped 'round her wee finger, kinda girl that's more trouble 'n good I can tell 'cause a' the way she hold 'erself, act, treat 'im.
Pffffffft she don' want 'im ta learn no bad words. Boy's just a boy, gotta grow up sometime.
Too damn protective fer my taste.
Think 'm gonna keep doin' what 'm doin'. If they prove ta me that this Atal Jinai's worth my time maybe I'll consider it but I don' go jumpin' on nothin' that come tryin' ta jump on me first, I'unno, jus' all seem bizarre.
Damn good-lookin' girl though. That boy's damned lucky, real damned lucky.
Damn. Just remember mate, hands off, girl's got a silver tongue and she's all kinds a' trouble. |
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| [WrA][Dybo] |
[Aug. 1st, 2009|10:16 pm] |
(( This man's writing is a real, real mess. ))
'Ki's dad kicked me outta the house hisself, guess I wasn't packed up fast 'nough fer 'im. Malaa wouldn't go wit' me, she likes th'kids too much, so 'm on me own fer now.
Said "don't come back 'til you've got some gold in those pockets of yers" an' I'm hopin' that I can avoid joinin' wit' the army fer now, maybe sell some leather an' learn ta make armour ta sell, too.
... I'm sure I can sweet-talk some other beastie ta run 'round wit' me. Daaayum. 'Least 'Ki got tha chance ta gimme a g'bye kiss.
Ta Do - Git started on th' weekly packet a' meat ta send over ta Ki and th' kids - Find a new dog - 'Nother lady, Ki's dad bein' 'round tha house tha past week 'er so been real hard on me boys
( ((His RSP, so I can transfer it to my other comp.)) ) |
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| [Kombe] |
[Jul. 27th, 2009|04:36 pm] |
So Juni wrote to me the night before last saying there's a new development with the dragon thing, so I met with her last night at the Retreat and Jeria showed up too. I always feel really, I dunno, uneasy 'cause I still get the feeling that Jeria blames me for, well, I guess Ti'rae never kept in touch with her.
Not much I can do there, it's in the past, gotta concentrate on now.
Long story short Juni's got two sets of memories in her head: one that the Blue Dragonflight magically tampered with and the other that's hers. It's like there's two people in her head trying to gain dominance and I think the real Juni might be losing the fight.
I'm scared shitless because one, I like this girl and I'd hate to see bad shit get worse and two, she's Matojo's daughter and I know he'll kill me if he finds out I'm involved and things go badly. He doesn't have to be standing over me for me to know that it's true.
Juni's aware of this other personality, 'cause she finds herself sometimes arguing with herself. This other self seems more violent and forward and that worries me 'cause it means she'll fight really hard not to be destroyed. I'm not so worried about what might happen to me I'm worried about Jeria or Juni. I mean, yeah, I could get killed, but if Juni gets hurt because this thing fights back I'll get killed anyway so it doesn't matter if I'm the first to go. Dad will still get looked after. Rayen and him get along really good, most of the people he's met with the Refuge like him, so I think he'll be okay if something does happen to me.
I've got to figure out some things:
- What this personality's like, its strengths, there's got to be weaknesses. Can it be distracted? Is it weaker than Jeria or/and myself? - HOW can I extract these memories without damaging what was there first, is it possible? This Violeta that Jeria wrote to me about has been researching Juni's condition so... - Get in touch with Violeta. - Energy can't be destroyed, only moved or given a new form. Since this memory set has developed its own distinct personality, since it is in effect a completely new being, there's going to be energy related to that. It's like two spirits sharing one body, and you can't effectively destroy spirits: can it be trapped?
I can't blame Jeria for being uncertain because I'm not entirely sure of any of this either. And... yeah.
So after telling Jeria what I found I went back down to talk to Juni, like I hinted about, and we got into talking about my love life or you know lack thereof. Like how there aren't any girls that really appeal to me, not like her and Ashtaar, and there aren't any guys that seem to be really interested in other men. I don't really look very hard I know but...
She's got some good points, though. Stop fidgeting, stop acting like a beaten mutt, etc etc. It's all in how I present myself.
It's not gonna be easy. I'm like this because of my mother and because of Juni's father. I grew up being told by the woman that gave me life that I wasn't good enough because of who she thought my father was, I grew up fearing the shadows and the bushes because I never knew when she'd hunt me down to beat me. Then when I ran away it was Matojo chasing me around and beating me because he thought I was his kid and it was his idea of discipline. I've been trained to worry, I don't know anything else.
I don't blame my dad for any of it though. He knew what my mother was doing and if not for him it probably would have been worse.
But Juni said I'm worthy of attention and if I just put on a brave face maybe I'll find the partners that are right for me I mean it's not the only thing that matters in my life but after all this time of just dad and me I'm starting to get
I need to go for a walk and clear my head and I need to figure out how I can help Juni and her family. And not let her down, or Jeria, 'cause they're relying on me to solve this. |
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| [Masamba] |
[Jul. 25th, 2009|06:43 pm] |
I think I'm not nearly so bad as I could be because I have a distraction.
My trainer insists that I go home every evening and get proper rest because "an overtired mind is a distracted mind, and a distracted mind will get you killed", seemingly ignoring the fact that I am always distracted and will be until all of this with Juni is resolved.
I am being good, though. I am going home, I am being patient and, well.
When I ran into Matojo, he looked at me and said, "You know, that's almost the kid I remember."
I think we are both at a point where we can resolve our differences. He has said that he now understands that I was meant to bring him back, that if I did not then he would have missed out on so much - Darda, his adult children, his grandchildren, miss Hecubah and his friends. As much pain as he has been in he realizes that he never, ever wanted to die.
I am forgiven and so is he.
I met my Captain for a drink last evening. He solemnly told me that someone he cares about his getting married and when I asked him how he feels about that he looked me straight in the eye and said, "I don't know."
He also asked that, if he attends and if Talash and, he assumes, Dekarn are to go, if I would take care of Koru for them.
I will pass it by Juni.
I am being asked to put my work on hold. Apparently there is a Druid that is seeking a combat partner, but she has several hoops to leap through in order to get to the point where she may join me. I could use the break, so I will wait for now. |
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| [Grin'dal] |
[Jul. 25th, 2009|02:03 am] |
(( The writing is clean, if not a little shaky, like somebody that's been trained to write well. ))
What a bitch!
This unit 'Nuka's been harping on about, if I join it I've gotta shape up? Not fair! The Horde's never told me, "Grin'dal, you've gotta get some exercise" - they let me do what I wanted 'cause I was good! I'm not even supposed to take hits, or move fast or anything like that. I just make shit hurt from far away. Sometimes I heal shit!
She didn't even stand up for me after all I've done for her!
I'll show her. I don't need Kinuka Swiftshot. I don't need her to get laid, to look after me, nothing. I have plenty of money stashed away to look after myself, pay the nurses, feed myself, so I don't need her or her huge rack.
I don't see why I've got to change. I'm an adult. I've been like this for years! What difference does it make?
She'll come crawling back and apologize to me any day now.
Man, it's quiet here. |
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| [Talash] |
[Jul. 22nd, 2009|10:53 pm] |
Jeria's gettin' married.
I ain't entirely sure what it means, I guess it's like Sepanja but you've gotta stick to one person and shit like that, but it sounds like somethin' real personal and special, I guess. Got me riled to hear some a' the fellas makin' fun of Jeria, especially since she sounded real bothered by it.
There's a point where you've gotta just stop and shut up. Yer adults, not a buncha kids.
I hope she's gonna be happy and I hope Rid don't mess her up. Girl deserves to be real, real happy.
But dad's gotta find out somehow and I asked Jeria to tell me before she does because I wanna be prepared for the inevitable b'awwwing session.
Loas, I hope he's drunk when he finds out. |
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| [Masamba] |
[Jul. 14th, 2009|04:29 pm] |
That Death Knight is creepy. End of story.
I'm hoping the information that I gave to Jeria will help with Juni's situation. I'm worried about Juni - trying not to let it get in the way of my good mood but I can't help but fidget incessantly. I don't want to bother her about it too much. I'm keeping as quiet about it as I can.
I really wish I could cook. I remember when my father wanted to make mother feel better or appreciated, he'd send us out to play and then he'd cook a meal for her. Perhaps I should learn, or hire someone to do it?
And, you know, if something went wrong with this mage that's going to look after Juni, I think the scariest part is I don't know how I would react. I've been getting used to seeing terrible things happen and cleaning up after them that I am not certain which direction I would go. An accomplished magi would have no problem offing me, however, so I doubt I would be much of a threat at this point anyway.
I know I had more to write abo
Oh, right. Jeria is being promoted, or was, and seemed concerned that I would be offended. She's bothered by the amount of elves among the officers and I pointed out that the non-elves either haven't been in the unit long enough, have proven themselves incapable or were officers and stepped down. I think that did it.
If anyone thought of promoting me again I would happily knee them in the bollocks. |
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| [Ojore] |
[Jul. 7th, 2009|11:43 am] |
(( A fresh book, seeing as the old one was destroyed in the explosion, that is thick and possesses a brown leather cover. The writing is no longer careful and the young man is not being as cautious with the content as he was - he's writing in common Zandali and not the Gurubashi-style script. ))
I am alive.
I am ugly, but I am alive.
The Gurubashi know that I come for them but I am alone I don't want to face anyone else with the way I am now. I don't want anyone to look at me like this. I won't get any of it back.
Hakkar let me down but I am not dead so that means something, a chance to get revenge.
I will kill them all. |
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